2021 almost end. Not so many great things happen but i just finish my skm level 2. Quite amazing aku nak juga habiskan sijil tu. Haritu dah hampir2 juga nk berhenti sbb too tired. 

On personal things, banyak sangat benda jadi. I am currenly depressed. Bila nak recover pun xtahu. Penatlah mcm ni. I want to be good and healthy. Masalah sikit2 okaylah kan. But amazingly aku belum menangis lagi tahun ni. Biggest achievement sbb mmg dah berazam kalini depressed mcm mna sekalipun aku x nak menangis. Tp entahlah kadang2 rasa aku patut menangis je. Mcm penat pula jadi kuat ni. Hahahaha.

On another side, banyak pula org kirim jodoh. Kalau aku boleh pass jodoh tu kat kawan2 aku. aku bg dah. Hahahahahaha.

    Dear God, Im sure you know well apa yg ada dalam hati ni. I am not ready for marriage. If what I chose right now is good for me, make it good for me. If it is not, no, I dont think so, hidup skrg agak sunyi but I already started loving it as it is. I cant even diffrentiate apa yg baik utk diri sendiri skrg ni but what I know, hidup dah mula nampak cahaya tapi aku masih dalam kegelapan. Begitulah keadaannya. But nways, I know im not a good servant, but i never seek help form anyone else other than you. I know im doin the right thing ,tp org sekeliling keep making me mcm buat keputusan yg salah. 

    Tahu dan sedar yg aku ni bukan semakin muda. But x ready, hati ni bukan aku yg tentukan siapa yg aku nak suka dan x suka. Kalau boleh, aku nak juga suka org dgn mudah. Aku nak bila org suka aku, aku nak suka dia balik. Tp bukan aku yg tentukan apa hati aku nk rasa. 

    God please, this time let me live in peace. Nak, nak sgt merasa apa rasanya hidup tenang tanpa gangguan. I tried so hard to be a good one, even kadang2 terberdosa juga. 2021 dah nak habis dah ni. Let me end it well and start 2022 with a new life, at least tanpa gangguan perasaan. Setahun je, bagi aku masa setahun before i am ready to end my bujang life. Setahun je lagi. All i ask is another year of peace and tranquility to let my soul rest before start work out on life again. I mean out and about for dating and marriage. Boleh x?

    I know im deciding on a right thing, I know You know this too. You always know what I want and always make it easy for me. This time, im asking again. Bagi masa setahun je lagi. Make it easy Allah. Just another year. Thats all i asked. Bg lah merasa hidup bujang yang tenang dan bermanfaat setahun je lagi. I am so not ready nak feeling2 skrg ni. Hahahahaha